We need time to refill our tanks so that we can continue filling the tanks of those around us. Isn’t this preached at the beginning of every flight you take? Put your oxygen mask on first right?! So it must be important!
If you’re familiar with the enneagram at all I’m a 2.
And 2s are givers.
Givers to a fault, and most times at the detriment of themselves.
I thought it would be so easy to attend classes because of it’s proximity to me.
I took my free introductory class and fell in love. Like really fell in love.
I felt so invigorated after that first class. I came home feeling amazing and busting at the seams to go back.
May is notoriously busy as it’s the last month of school. I was exhausted and had no brain cells to spare after planning class parties, teacher gifts, and answering dozens of parent questions (homeroom mom life am I right??).
Soon school was out and I just knew I could make it happen. I was pumped and ready. However, my husband’s work schedule had other plans. Late nights and a stressed spouse made night time trips to the Pilates studio impossible. And when he was home at a normal time I hated to put him in charge of the kids.
Then there were vacations and slumber parties and general summer shenanigans.
Before I knew it almost three months went by and I had not made it back to Pilates.
This is absolutely not a reflection on my husband. He would tell me to go, but I won’t ask.
It’s me. I will always, always sacrifice what I want for my loved ones, it’s how I am built.
I put myself last to “better” my family.
The crazy thing about that logic is the self I am giving to my family isn’t better because I’m exhausted from not taking care of me!
Listen, I am 100% talking to me. I am so bad about this it’s literally not funny.
But I am also talking to all my momma friends out there.
I have chosen two ways to start taking care of me, and I encourage you all to do the same thing.
Every morning, Monday-Friday. Come rain or shine or cranky kids I will make it happen.
As of this post I’ve been doing it for 3 weeks and it honestly sets such a nice tone for my day.
Most days I’ve gotten to do it uninterrupted but as seen here I did have a helper one morning.
You know what? That’s ok. I still had my time with God and I still took care of me and honestly it felt amazing!
You know what else feels pretty amazing? Being able to turn to any book of the bible with ease thanks to my new bible tabs from Dear Madaline Designs! I was always stumbling around trying to find what I needed, but not anymore! Y’all know paper products thrill me, and if they help me keep my promise to have my daily devotion each day then heck yeah!
My husband and I have discussed our week and found days that no matter what, he will be home in time for me to go to class.
But this is my hangup. Not his. I will squash down anything that pops up.
However, I know my personality. If I don’t start small I will fail at it all.
So for now I am sticking to these two that are most important to me and I’ll see how I do!